“Everyone’s life is driven by something. Most dictionaries define the verb drive as “to guide, to control, or to direct.” What is the driving force in your life?
- The Purpose Driven Life

At the top of everything, I think God is the driving force in my life. But besides that, right now, I've fallen in love with someone and that person has been guiding, controlling and directing most of my thoughts and actions. I think that for now, I'm denying it to myself and I'm trying to show my friends and other people that I am not whipped (what a guy thing to say!) But, I can already see that I am falling truly, madly, deeply in love once again. It scares me but I'm praying that it's all worth it in the end. I'm hoping for the best but expecting the worst. I'm putting my trust in you and I hope that you won't break my heart.

On a less cheesier note, the 50th Antioch weekend was the best. I'm on a high but I can't really show it because I'm still recovering from it and I'm still trying to regain my strength and energy! All I can say is... I miss the singing, I miss the candidates (especially my sharegroup and sleepgroup!), I miss team! I miss the weekend!! I can't wait for Friday :)

17.
That's the number of days I have until I head back to school again. Not that it's so bad because I've only got 15 units this term which gives me a lot of free time.

10.
That's the number of pounds I've always and will always want to lose so I might as well just deal with the fact that I'm okay any weight I am. (But a little weight loss won't hurt haha)

0.
That's the amount of money I have in my wallet. Luckily, my allowance is due soon!

10.
The number of best friends I have.

3.
Number of phones I've lost :(

4.
Number of email addresses I have. When I'm not too lazy I'm going to organize my internet life and make sure I just have ONE email address for everything.

3.
Number of songs I am very into it and that I have on loop in my iPod.

88,000.
Number of pesos I need to get a new laptop.

2,300.
Number of pesos I need to get a new straightening iron.

318497312890457283057218456248905624190852145.
Number of times I miss you!

71904730895721380572840574209572409584920579042754905794057.
Number of times my internet has fucked up!!!

16.
The episode number of Gossip Girl that I'm awaiting.

4.
For the 4th season of Entourage that I'm going to watch tonight.

8:39.
The time I need to get off this comp and write my Antioch talk! (Hi Belli!)

No year can compare to 2007. It was such a year that it's already April 2008 and I still tend to write 7 instead of 8. And because I decided to stay in and miss Seb & Peepoy's party and/or hanging out with the south people, I will reminisce on the year that so far helped me grow up the most.

AC Fair 07. It was quite boring and very hot so Cabe, Pauline, Ge, Chiara, Paolo and I randomly decided to head to Ponti's. It was 10pm and no one was there. We had quite a number of shots that we got kind of drunk. An hour after, we headed back to the fair where my friends went crazy! Ge held Paolo's hand, Pauline was proclaiming her intoxication to everyone, Chiara was flirting with... hahahahahaha and so on. We were actually drunk on school grounds. It was something I wanted to do before I graduated. Good thing we didn't get into trouble for that.

4-1. The one thing I remember about my class was that we had birthday parties every week! We even had one for Isa on January when her birthday was around April! I remember having a Halloween party and I was dressed up as Camel and she was dressed up as me. I remember our Kapatiran had a Children's party theme and for some reason I dressed up as a ghost. I couldn't see and it was so hot! I also remember our Shakesfest chorale recitation where we had the convenience of not having to pay for or make any costumes. Our theme was the classroom and we were in our AC uniforms, we had bloody face paint and we had books and an armchair each at hand. Those were great times!

Senior Retreat 07. It was so boring and draggy that I think Cabe and I went insane. We were room/cubicle mates and since we were bored out of our minds we stole Pauline, Ge and Jess' bras and hung them on everyone's door knobs. Ms. Esquivel got so mad at us so we had to clean everything up. I remember fitting 14 girls in our little castle on a cloud cubicle which wasn't big at all. I remember our little indoor campfire and waiting so eagerly the night before we were going to leave to get our phones back!

Seniors' Night 07. Extreme barkada bonding. Tons of pictures and a really fun yet smokey after-party at Cuisine. I remember super stressing out and crying over Ball with Cabe but at the end of it all, it turned out alright. Awkward father-daughter dances and freaky butterfly releases made the kodak moments. I remember tipsily getting ecstatic over having matching ball dates with Camel (my fraternal separted at birth twin sister) and having complete Lunchbuds pictures (minus Jelly). Whenever I look at those pictures they seem so long ago (well, it was so long ago) and so much has changed! Den had long hair!!! Hahaha

Graduation 07. Happiness and sadness rolled into one. I remember practicing our grad song for the longest time days before grad but when grad came and we had to sing our song, none of us could because we were all crying our eyes out! My barkada and I had our There, there baby it's just textbook stuff. It's in the ABC of growing up OC-esque pictures taken with our diplomas at hand.

I know there's more to it, I just don't remember. But those were the major events of Senior year :)

One day I told my family that I never have anything to wear anymore. They looked inside my closet and told me that it's full of clothes. So, I looked in my closet and I did see clothes but I saw clothes that I wouldn't wear anymore. So then I had this bright idea to have a garage sale!! To make more space for new clothes and to make money to buy new clothes!!
So, here is what my floor looks like at this very moment. I have 2 boxes full of tops, a maleta of skirts, a maleta of jeans (flares!) and a table full of accessories (dangling earrings and weird necklaces!)
My maids got so excited they wanted to get first dibs so I let them and in half an hour I made 2,740 bucks! I'm so happy!
Anyway, tell your maids (not drivers cause it's only things for girls) that I'm having a garage sale in my house this Saturday until Sunday. It starts at 10am! Help a fashion slave in need!!

I have 3210 songs in my itunes. It still doesn't beat Camel's 5000, but it's so stupid cause I haven't even listened to all 3210 songs. So now, I can't sleep and I'm bored so I put my whole itunes on shuffle. I found a few really good songs that I've never heard and that I've forgotten over time. I put them on a playlist so I won't forget them. After I got tired of listening to songs I played my ask the itunes game! One of my favorite ice breakers! It's better to play it with other people though but anyway, here are the results I got...

What will Den's husband be like?
You'll See - Rent (hahahahahahah)

How are the Bora people doing?
Positive Vibrations (Mix) - Bossa N' Marley

What will my next boyfriend be like?
The Love That Left You To Die -  Metro Station (wtf!!! hahah)

How will summer 2008 be?
Rock This Party - Bob Sinclair

How is Camel right now?
Flashing Lights - Kanye West (ok doesn't really make sense)

What will happen to Jed and Jaycy in the near future?
A Bad Dream - Keane (okkkkkkkk......)

What should I expect from the new upcoming episode of Gossip Girl?
Bop To The Top - Lucas Gabreel and Ashley Tisdale (wtf hahahah)

What is Casey doing next door right now?
Mama - Annuals (whaaat??)

What will tomorrow be like?
Sleep - Azure Ray (meaning it will be boring??)

I think I'll post the funny ones nalang since the ones that don't make sense aren't that funny hahahaha

What will happen this weekend?
Falling In Love In A Coffee Shop - Landon Pigg (my, I sure do hope so! hahahaha)

What will the Antioch weekend be like?
Proper Education - Eric Prydz vs Floyd (hahaha all the candidates will have to memorize the entire book of Psalms or die!)

Okkkkk i'm too tired to type the rest and A LOT don't make sense haha

I'm at Casey's and she's doing her IFS homework for her Spain trip on May. She has to answer this whole booklet of questions and activities and one of the questions she has to answer is "What movie, book or story had the most impact in your life?" She asked me what mine was and I said The Devil Wears Prada. I watched it in Rockwell with Chiara and Jaycy when we were still in 3rd year. This was also the day Chiara got a second piercing on her ear! Hahaha! Well, anyway, before I watched The Devil Wears Prada, I never used to care about what I wore or how I looked. I mean, shopping wasn't something I really liked doing as much and make-up wasn't a necessity for me yet. I was sort of like Andy before she got her make-over in the movie. If you look at my pictures from all the years before 2005, I'd be in a polo and slippers. No heels or anything like that. I read magazines for the advice and stories and not for the fashion updates and make-up tips. I was really sabog, not that I'm not anymore though! Haha!
After watching The Devil Wears Prada, I super changed. I shopped the next day after watching the movie for new clothes to wear and got rid of some of my old clothes. I don't know if it's for the better but no one really complained about it. I now shop more often and I take longer hours to get ready to go out. My closet isn't just full of different colored polos and shirts but it has other stuff too. I have make-up in my bag and an iron for my hair! I started caring more about how I looked and I guess in a way, I got more conscious about my self-appearance. Sometimes though I get too lazy to care that I don't. Haha!

It's so funny how a movie could influence me this much. I can still watch it and get inspired to dress up again! Hahaha.

Good morning, world.
I'm happy to report that It's a new beginning today.
:)

I re-watched Funny Face for the hundredth time and I got kilig with this song in the movie... It's also called Funny Face. Fred Astaire sang it to Audrey Hepburn because in the movie, they wanted her to model for this magazine called Quality but it was against all her principles and she never really found herself pretty. But then she changed her mind when he sang this song to her. You'll only get to appreciate it if you watch the movie. But I just wanna save the lyrics here because it makes me smile :) hahaha

I decided to ditch lonely Fridays (the day no one has the same break as me) and live in my pajamas for a day. So far, I've managed to consume my body weight in chocolates, cheese and crackers and watch a dozen HappySlip videos on Youtube and it's only 11:30! Well, I was up since 9. I'm still debating on whether I should go to lunch with the guys in Makati because Makati just seems soooo far away right now. I'm bored and I've been replaying my John Mayer playlist over and over because he sings the perfect stay-in-bed-with-the-aircon-on-while-the-sun's-up songs.
Maybe I'll re-watch Juno or eat more chocolate truffles? But they both require me to stand up and get out of bed and I'm perfectly content with staying in bed for the next half hour or so.

Ok, this is me being a bonafide bum. I don't even try. I really am one.
BUUUUT I'm getting pretty bored. Ige's online and we're chatting about nothing. Facebook's being boring cause no one's writing on my wall or tagging me in pictures and I've been going back and forth to the site.  If only I had a DS to play Cooking Mama or Diner Dash, I swear I wouldn't be bored out of my mind. I think I'll put on Heroes 2 and re-watch the whole season. I watched everything 2 days ago but I was distracted so I didn't really get to concentrate. You know what's scary? 1 show is around 40 minutes to an hour. That's a lot of time... by the time I finish one I'd have to get up and shower to head to Makati for the lunch. Time flies by so fast sometimes. Well, it depends. Sometimes a minute feels longer than it should be. Strange...

Camel's party last saturday was a blast. It's been the only thing I've been talking about since yesterday! There are so many pictures and Camel has yet to upload her 800 photographer pictures! I would really love to go into detail but everything's kind of a blur and too many things happened! It was super fun though. I loved dancing on the platform with the DJ booth. I loved dancing our dance! I love how cotillions always bring people closer. I will surely miss dance practices. That was a super fun dance! I loved the food and the people I hung out with! The place was gorgeous, the food and drinks were good, the music was great.... Galeng talaga. I LOVE YOU CAMEL! I'm glad you are super kilig with everything. You truly deserve it!

To the girl who lets me sleepover in her house and makes me feel at home whenever I'm there
To the girl who I feel super comfortable with and who I can be myself with
To the girl who I have so much fun with whenever and wherever
To the girl who I trust sooo much
To the girl who makes being single more fun than it already is
To the girl who is just pure good vibes
To the girl who listens to me rant about certain people and who listens to me talk endlessly about my kilig moments with my crushes
To the girl with the coolest music
To the girl who I love going out with
To the girl I love dancing with
To the girl I super love talking to
To the girl who keeps me company whenever I'm lonely
To the girl who can make me laugh and smile in a snap
To the girl who never boasts but has so many things to be proud of
To the girl who gives the nicest hugs
To the girl who keeps her safety baseball t-shirt at hand at all times (and rubs on it  with her fingers for comfort haha)
To the girl with really nice hair and skin
To the girl with cute freckles
To the girl who is tooooo cute for words
To the girl who is hotter than she gives herself credit for
To my senior buddy
To my junior prom buddy
To my matching ball dates buddy
To one of my best friends
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY! You're LEGAL now! WUHOO!

Chef Tony's Cheddar Popcorn, Paotsin's Fried Sharksfin, Queso de Bola (especially from Camel's house), Cibo's Telefono, Sprinkles from Cooks Exchange, Stay Fresh mints, Cafe Breton's Nutella and Butter and Sugar crepes, Mcdo's 1 pc Mcchicken with rice and 2 packs of extra gravy, Jollibee Spaghetti, Cucina Victoria's Frenchie's Onion Soup, Dulcinea's Churros con chocolate, Tempura from any Japanese restaurant except Tokyo Tokyo, Bread Talk's Cheese Floss, Hershey's chocolate kisses MILK, DARK, CARAMEL, CHERRY, COOKIES n' CREME, Sango Burger's French Fries, KFC's brownies and orange chicken, Denise Laurel's spaghetti (which I haven't had in ages!), Banana bread from Mandi's house, Starbucks' caramelized onion and bacon baguette, Venue's bagoong rice,  Archer's Lair's siomai and Nai Cha, Cafe Bola's alige pasta and this other thing that Jaycy always orders but I forgot what it's called, Sentro's bottomless gulaman, Marta's cakes' LAVA CAKE, Sonja's mississippi mudpie cupcake and vanilla sunshine cupcake, Mary Grace Cafe's something mushroom pasta and hot chocolate, Chelsea's something pizza and all their desserts!!! italliani's rosemary chicken, Soms' chicken pandan, Polo club's tempura, pad thai, churros, chicken something, kropek, spaghetti and garlic fries, Cotton candy, Kare-kare, tinola, lamb chops with mashed potatoes and corn, Mang Tomas' all-around sarsa and soy sauce with anything......

FOOOD!!
SOMEONE FEED ME NOW
I HAVEN'T EATEN LUUUUNCH

Today didn't go really well. Not because it's Valentine's day but because my laptop almost broke down on me, my internet broke down on me and school's been a bitch. But I don't want to dwell on today because I would very much like to forget about it already. So let's talk about the week. For the past few days I have been Cupid's little helper. From making a card for Felipe to attempting to draw a poster for Pao L (but it never happened cause he never gave me the paper haha), to accompanying Noel to Tiendesitas and Bio Research to find a rabbit. I have been spreading the love and helping these boys with their Valentine's gimmick for their special freinds. Unfortunately, I did not receive anything extraordinarily special today but the free meals I got and am getting in return for my services are enough to keep me happy. Being Cupid's little helper has it's perks. Aside from the free meals, I wasn't alone on Valentine's day! Despite all the people holding roses and bears, I wasn't jealous. Well, maybe I was... but not so much because I'm happy! Despite all the forms of technology that I own letting me down today and despite my entire family ditching me during dinner, one of my most anticipated wishes came true and I had good company all throughout today. From Sam to Mary to Jen to Casey...
Tomorrow's going to be a much better day because I'm going to see people I really want to see! I'm excited already :)

I think that I'm willing to do anything to be your friend again.
I think I'd do anything to be able to go back to the way things used to be.
I'm letting my pride go and admitting that even though I'm all "happy" and having fun, life's incomplete without you.
Cheesy and emo but true.